Tuesday, November 11, 2003

Areolas free pics?

Whoever searched on areolas free pics - weirdo. Now the real question is why did my blog turn up in a search for areola free breast pics. I can't think of the last time I said the word 'areola' much less blogged about it. Weird.

Just had to get that out :) So it's 24 night tonight (*groan* she's not going to yak about 24 again is she?). No I'm not going to yak about it here because I've created a whole new blog for it and it can be found at 24addict.com (Thanks Ratty!) as soon as my new domain name propagates through the net :) I couldn't believe that domain was available. Anyway all gushing/speculating about 24 will take place there and spare all 2 of my readers here further grief because I just know they're dying to find out how depressed I am about my finances instead :D

Actually I've decided not to be depressed about my finances. I'm so bloody sick of stressing over money and how I'm going to juggle the bills. Last week scared the hell out of me and now I'm more determined than ever to find a way to get out of Nebraska. I'm so serious about doing it that I'm considering actually letting the grandparents in on it. Once I say it out loud to them, I have to go through with it.

I said I was thinking about it... I don't know if I'm ready to tell them yet though. But I don't want to spring it on them either. Maybe it's best to ease them into it and get them used to it. After all, it's not like I'm leaving in a month. I don't foresee me working this out until next year sometime (and I mean towards the end of next year. The kid will probably at least be able to finish 8th grade here in Nebby.) I don't want to rush this, because I have to do this in such a way as to ensure success. I don't want it to be England all over again.

After i graduated from college I was in such a fever to get the hell out of Nebraska and had an overwhelming desire to be in England that I sold everything I owned and the kidlet and I moved over there on a student visa. While I had a wonderful time over there and miss it terribly, I didn't really make much of myself there. I worked in a pub, we lived at the pub aswell - it just wasn't condusive to having a child really. So when my visa expired, I stayed a bit longer, then got paranoid about being there illegally, compounded with a tyrannical boss, and we were home by Christmas. When I got back, I was no better off than when I left. A fact that my mother pointed out to me whenever she was mad at me.

So now I've got the fever to get out, but I've also learned my lesson about acting on a whim. But this time I've got several years experience in my professional life, and I'm going to do this the right way. I've already said that but you know sometimes you just need to reinforce it. Especially when life's getting you down and all you can think of is escape. I think that's why I'm so terribly besotted with kiefer Sutherland and 24 right now. Because I'm needing some bigtime escapism and hey it's much nicer to shut my brain down by watching Jack as opposed to downing a fifth you know? So to everyone of my friends who laugh at me for my little 24 obsession - *phhhhbts* bite me :)

Sunday, November 09, 2003

Saturday night

Well, it's actually Sunday morning but I wrote in here last night and fuck me if I didn't lose the whole damn thing. Argh.

Well it was mainly just me rambling on about 24 and Kiefer again. I know I keep doing that, but I can't help it. I freaking love this show and I want more people to get sucked into Jack's world. It's such an addictive, well-crafted, well-written show and every character has so many layers to them it's incredible. And I can definitely say it holds up to multiple viewings. Even though I know what happens and the surprise element is gone, I'm finding I am picking up the subtleties now - things I wouldn't have known to look for the first time around. Anyway, I can't say enough good things about 24 and if you haven't seen it, see it. Right now. Drop what you're doing and go rent the DVDs.

As for Kiefer himself, well every film I catch him in shows me how underrated this man is. My favourite film of the moment is called 'Dead Heat' in which he plays Pally Lamarr, a young cop forced into retirement because of a heart condition. It also stars Anthony Lapaglia and Radha Mitchell. Pally's brother (Lapaglia) convinces him to get in on a dodgy scheme involving a horse and a jockey who's in deep to the mob. What follows is a chance to see Kiefer in a wonderful comdic performance - a rare thing and something I'd love to see more of. He and Lapaglia act off of each other as if they really were brothers - it's great :) this is a brilliant little film.

Anyway, I'll quit gushing for now. Expect more later :) Right now I'm thinking I'm going to go back to bed. It's far too early on a Sunday to be awake.