Ohh my head.

Stayed home from work today. Hate doing that, but when I woke up this morning my head was pounding, my stomach was rolling and to even move my eyeballs meant daggers of pain ricocheting around my skull. I did try to get up and take a shower and all that. I got as far as staring at the tub when I decided I just couldn't bear it. So I called work and then crashed until 11.

Head still hurt so I checked email and went back to bed.

Woke up a little later and felt marginally better. Watched Calendar Girls in bed - very funny movie btw. Laughing hurt. Would like to watch it again when the pain stops. Now it's early evening, we've eaten. The pain has subsided somewhat. I can turn my head now without feeling dizzy. I've had coffee in the hopes that it's a caffeine thing. I do get really bad headaches if I suddenly quit caffeine even for the briefest of times.

I don't think it's a migraine, but then again how would I know? My grandmother would lecture me about seeing the doc about it but I'm weird about going to the Doc for trivial things. But what if you have a tumour? That's not so trivial. Yadda yadda yadda. I like to save up my illnesses and do it all in one go :)

So that was my day today. Sleep, pain, coffee, and naked older women.

I feel like writing

And I don't mean just blogging. I love blogging and stuff, but I'm getting that creative itch to write. Which means I'll come up with story ideas, write a little, think about how difficult it is to get published, and give up.

I so want to write a book. I've got so many story ideas floating around in my head but other than just posting it in a blog, I've not got the first clue how one goes about getting something published. Do I need an agent first? Can you really just send manuscripts off to publishers and hope one of them likes it? Can I take rejection? What makes me think anyone would give a toss about what I write? What should I write about? Write what you know. Bah. I know my life hasn't been all that exciting, why would anyone want to know about it?

See? This is why I end up giving up on writing. Self-doubt - tis a powerful thing. Maybe I'll just purge my urge to write with some fanfic.