Ridiculous Thoughts

It’s fecking snowing outside. Grrrr. And underneath it is a thickass layer of ice. My car doors were frozen shut this morning – I love when that happens. Need to buy de-icer. Anyway, luckily yesterday I got it in my head to go get my new tires on the car. I’m not a very good planner, hehe. I meant to get one tire this check and another tire next check, but Goodyear had a deal on some used ones. Hope my paycheck is big. They said I need new brakes aswell (rotors and pads whatever that means) *sigh* At this rate I’m never going to get to go to Chicago. Well I am going, but still, I’m not going to have much money. Luckily I’ve only got to cover gas and food and *maybe* a bit of shopping in Chicago. Then it’s up to Rick’s to see the big Pink House, hehehe.. That makes me giggle.. My big tough cousin living in a pink house 🙂

Saw Red Dragon the other night. Very very good and creepy. Much better than Hannibal (though, frankly I liked Hannibal but lecter enthusiasts always seem negative about it. Of course it wasn’t as good as Silence. Even Red Dragon wasn’t as good as that, but it was still scary and creepy and made me look away a few times.

What have I been doing.. Let’s see. Got AAA to make a trip tick thingie for me, free for AAA members so woohoo to that. I remember my aunt using one for our roadtrip to the east coast and it was dead handy. I’m about to begin typing up three brochures on how to quit smoking for the website. wheeeee fun. I lead an exciting life.

Don’t have much else to add. Waiting still to hear from Kelly in Scotland. She better email today.

I was just re-reading what I wrote yesterday and I realised it sounds kind of bad, especially where I said ‘I don’t care that much’ right after saying everythings gone to hell. I didn’t mean that. Of course I care about my aunt, and I’m having a difficult time adjusting to her being gone. I guess I meant that because of that, I’m not bothered too much about losing some other things that used to be important to me, ie. the forum, the group blog etc. They just don’t seem that big of a deal in the grand scheme of things. I got a dose of perspective on it all and found I don’t miss them as much as I thought I would.

Anyway, cheers to Rick for pointing out every link error I had on my site and making me actually work when I was at home 😀 The other day I decided I’d better tidy up my site and add some more content so I went through and changed my little flash menu on every page, added some pics and new links, fixed the tables that didn’t stretch for every screen resolution and all that stuff. I didn’t do too badly but by the time I’d changed everything I was too tired to check links. So a couple of them were buggered. All sorted now tho. THEN he tells me his emails to me keep bouncing, yet I’m getting the message, so something with my ukmelia.com domain email is fucking up along the line and I can’t figure it out. I tell you, I need to marry a computer techie/auto mechanic and I would be set for life. All the good ones are taken though 🙁

Anyway, I’d better get to work, lots to do today.

Eesh everything’s just gone all to hell. Funnily enough, I don’t care all that much. Judy is gone. I know I should be glad she’s at peace (this is what everyone says. If it comforts them, that’s all right), but damnit I miss her. I miss being able to go to her with my woes. You know how, with your mother, you can be very close, but there are just things you don’t tell your mom? I could say them to Judy. Of course she would often pass them along to Mom but that’s ok. Sisters do that. I don’t like the memories of the past week – well most of them. Last week was very nice for other reasons I won’t go into because they’re irrelevant to this train of thought. But Judy’s funeral was at the same funeral home as my mother’s. The same person officiated. It was surreal. I’m not sure who I was crying for more, mom or Judy.

It was weird being on the peripheral edge of it all aswell. My sister and I weren’t ‘immediate family’ and so we felt a little left out. My uncle’s relative sort of came and took over everything, from food to sorting through Judy’s things. There wasn’t anything left for us to do. In a way it was a relief. There was so much to do after mom’s funeral, so many things to organise, plus I had to pack up her whole house in less than a week or her psycho landlady would have expected more rent. I suppose it’s because of all of that that I felt like there would have been more for me to do. I don’t know, I’m new to the funeral thing, but I don’t like it.

What else have I lost… Oh my Placebo forum. Ka-rash and burn. Leigh shut them down for personal reasons and quit working for the band. So I think Dee has taken over the site and the Silver Rocket forum so that’s still there at least. But oddly enough I’m not fussed. I can still talk to Leigh and Dee so I’m happy with that. Still have TCZ aswell so all is not hopeless.

So some nice things about this last week. I’ve learned beer is not that bad. Not sure I could ever fully enjoy it the way Rick does, and I deffo dislike the bitter beers he’s so fond of, but it’s not all bad. I never knew there could be so many subtle flavours and aromas in a pint. What else… Oh watched my first full hockey game and I now know what a power play is. I must sound desperately silly to a sports fan but I don’t care. I never got into them. Always preferred playing to watching, not that I get much of a chance to do that these days, but hockey’s definitely something I can watch with interest. I used to love ice-skating. I might have to take the kid sometime to kearney and skate the rink there. Must also look into renting Slapshot if I can find it. Rick said it’s a classic.

Anyway, have to get back into the mode of going to work. Which means I’d better get to bed.

Ooo ahh I wonder if this one still works… I have so many blogs to write in any more… I dunno what I’ve gotten myself into and I dunno if I have it in me to blog in 4 different places. Ohh I know some people have a million places they blog in, but I’t s hard enough to babble on about the weather and other mundane shit in one, let alone other ones. Oh well. The TCZ blog is kind of fun because it’s a groupl blog and I find it actually motivates me to update it more frequently than I do my private blogs. I liked it so much I started one for SR members. I might even start one for the public forum.. will have to see if there’s any interest. Anyway. off I go.

Testy test testing 🙂

Mmmm Spinach Alfredo pizza. Not bad!

So I got the ww portal working and it’s looking quite pretty if I do say so myself. I really just need to move the content over and play with it some more before I spring it on everyone. Oh and KDSI needs to sort out the reason why it won’t email new signups. Hope they do that quickly. I think I’m going to ask my boss if we could send them a candy bouquet or something. They’ve been sooo helpful getting me going and very patient with me as well, especially when I broke it the day they got it up and running 🙂

*yawn* I’m tired. I think I need to get up and move around because I’ve been fiddling with the site for a couple hours now. Took the kid and visited Judy this morning. Grandparents showed up aswell. Then we went and did some grocery shopping for her. It is fecking hot out and I have no good summer clothes. So here I am in my hoodie and thick track pants. All black of course so I’m absolutely baking. And my calf is killing me. Went swimming last night and got a horrific leg cramp just as I was diving under water. And just at that moment the poor kidlet got hit in the head with a volleyball. Poor thing. But I’m so proud of her. She went down the speed slide for the first time all by herself. Other than the atomic wedgie it gave her I think she liked it! She’s so brave 🙂

Anyway I’m off to do… something. Dunno what but need a break from the comp. Ta ra.

Man I’ve got a headache. Argh. And I get to spend the next 7 hours looking at the computer. Yeah, that should help. Lately I’ve gotten a little tired of being online all the time. I think I’m going to take a break from it in the evenings. I was mainly on to talk to Leigh and Dee but they’re caught up in football fever (well, Leigh is anyway) and Big Brother UK. So, while I adore talking to them, I need to get away from the comp and get things done around the house etc. Maybe I’ll take the kidlet swimming tonight.

Ooo Payday tomorrow. The raise should have kicked in. Still have to wait a month before I get my first check with my fulltime webmaster status on it, but tomorrow’s check should still be nice. Thank goodness because if I don’t start making more money soon, I’m really going to be in the shit. I dunno where it all goes, it’s not like I buy extravagant things. Hell I haven’t bought new clothes for myself in ages even. And the poor kidlet is wearing clothes from last summer. Plus her bday is coming up and I don’t know what to get her…. Maybe I’ll get her one of the HP books on CD. She’s dying for all of them. She likes to listen to them in her room – what a cutie.

Anyway I’m off to see if the damn ISP has finished installing PHP yet because I need to get going on the WW site. I’ve been stagnant for 3 weeks now because of them *grr*. Will write later.